The eye can only see outwards, and cannot see itself.
Ever since I was a child, I have had many musical notes and melodies playing inside me.
I have lived immersed in music with no sound as if it were part of my spirit.
I thought everyone experienced the same.
Then someone else became aware of it and told me to record all those melodies.
Years passed while I tried to figure out how to express them the way they played in me.
Those melodies showed up as many layers and styles as diverse as symphonies and rock'n roll.
Sometimes they were marching army songs, sometimes sounds of ancient dynasties.
How was I to express them? I couldn't just reach out to musician friends and start a band.
Having excessive variety of instruments, taking endless time to write the melodies down, and practicing together so everybody could hear my melodies the way I did were no easy tasks.
And to make matters worse, not many musicians would be willing to work with me thanks to my travelling lifestyle.
I wanted to give up many times. It was so easy just to give up.
I wouldn't have to do much and could still enjoy those layers of melodies in my head.
But I found it sad not being able to share them with friends, because sharing is crucial for human beings.
The sharing of happiness is the basis for true friendship.
Mine would be a sad life if I could not share what I had.
When the music played in the background inside me, I used to ignore them most of the time.
I had learned not to pay attention.
I could not look inwards and see them as songs that needed to be shared.
But now I see these melodies in a different light thanks to my husband who recognized them and helped me look inside.
I don't see them the same as before.
I will not have regrets for not even trying anymore.
A professional keyboard and my home studio opened up possibilities that I did not know existed.
Many thanks to my husband, family and friends who supported me to bring out the songs out into this world.
Many years had passed since I had touched a keyboard but they were willing to wait.
Here are those melodies that had only existed inside me.